<font color="red"> </font> We hurt to feel empty to lose each new blessing to hurt with new passion for all who hurt grant them this day to to feel nothing this day to to feel ugly to hurt like we're nothing we burn us and cut us and stick bad things in us we have lots of pain and we put on display our fate taunts us and mocks us we have no friends holding our head we need rest from the hurt of this nothing we feel this new feeling of emptiness stealing our heart into empty this hurt gives us plenty of pain that we wear we wear pain and we swear to feel ugly for all as we cut and we bawl and the blood will then show us we hurt inside too much to keep this blood in us we rip us to shreds and lie crying in bed cause this blood shows us pain we feel from their disdain of us we can't stop crying cause we feel like dying our hurt gives us something to grab onto nothing but blood on us bleeding and seething we see red cause we are so sick in our head thinking back to the times that we bled and we made people sick of us dreading to be with us seeing the freak that they really can't see cause they're so very blind from their very own kind of a blindness that keeps them away from our feeling the need to destroy ourselves out of the loneliness coming from chaos and misunderstandings of others whos weaknesses keep them from seeing the hurt that we feel from the ugliness calling us out to the war that we fight just to keep us alive.........just to make me feel empty each day brings me blessings of people who can't see me hurting cause I'm just so little and learning to hate myself mommy and daddy I'm crying in bed it's so lonly and dark and I can't see you here please don't leave me I'm scared it's inside my mouth pulling me down to feel feer of the feeling I have in my teeth can't you see me I feel bad and so sad you're leaving me please stop decieving me I keep on trying to stop all this crying from lightning inside my chest striking my heart leaves me restless all day and I'm trying to say something's wrong you don't hear me you're gone from my pleadings of helplessness in my sleep dragging me down a deep path of destruction and chaos and loneliness keeping my chest from expanding your small understanding my screaming to say It's a dream that I wake and I crawl to your bed and I beg you to wake me to shed some light on all this darkness surrounding me in my dream stopping my breathing and you're not believing me loneliness takes me below you to show you the emptiness isn't here I can't stop seeing these tears they are hurting me burning and blurring my eyes are you learning(?) I'm dying here losing myself each day hurting myself like I'm hating myself and I'm crying and wanting to leave myself learning to not be myself anymore.......I am never myself anymore.........forever myself until never myself anymore............... <font color="red"> </font> <font color="red"> </font>