I have been diagnoissied with having depression. My doc to begin with said I was extremely close to being Clinically Depressed. I had to go back after 2 weeks. I went back and she prescribed prozac.

I have been on Prozac now for 2 weeks. The side effects were horrific to begin with. But I muddled through.

You just don't realise how low you are until you are very low.

I use to have a sort of eating disorder- I was not anorexic but I ahd issues with food.

After the death of both my Grandparents I turned to alcohol, I started hanging around with this girl who was a bad influence on me and we use to get drunk every night. I got used by her and she ditched me in a club. I then stupidly agreed to meet her at the water front. Guess what she wasnt there. Then I started drinking while there and crying. I tried to committ suicide. I didnt though hence telling the tale.

I developed OCD when I had my eating issues, this is getting worse but is still managable.

I was constantly fighting with my folks and mt twin sister.

I have always hid this from people and dealt with all these issues myself by putting my happy smiley face on and sayinf everything is "fine" when actually I am dying to tell someone but dont want people to think I am an idiot.

I was in work and started to cry for no reason, I had been doing it a lot but never at work. i confided in a friend about everything and she thought I was depressed. So I eventually made the appointment at the docs.

I am glad I did it but its really hard when on a low day as I have let my guard down. I am not "fine" anymore. I am struggling/drowning and people have now realised it