((((BeautifullyMistaken)))))

I know that you're going through a very rough time right now. UGH - no fun! It's only day 10 of the medication. Sometimes, it just seems to take forever to start feeling a little better!

If you're really miserable on this medication, call the doctor's office today and talk with a nurse about the dramatic effects. Otherwise, try to keep up on your med/s. Keep talking with the T about how you're feeling (physically & emotionally). Be honest. The more honest we are, the better able the T's are to help us overcome our misery. Please don't give in to the temptation of SI. As you know, the SI will only make you feel worse down the road. If the temptation is very strong, call your T for help now.

I've been on that road. It is miserable. But whatever teeny bit of pleasure/hope that you have, hold onto it with all of your might. Don't give in to the tempting thoughts and ideas that you find popping into your head. Don't kick yourself for thinking of them ~ but do push them away and focus on whatever pleasure you have until you get a better hold of your emotions. Once you get into a better state of mind, stay in the moment.

Gentle hugs to you