It is true, its not something I want to hear. I really at least want to get it on track because we broke up 6 months ago, and I miss her real badly. If she wants to just have better general relations with me (as opposed to now where she feels unenthusiastic, and that I'm constantly negative) like she says she does, then I really want to get started on that. I have a hard time concentrating on anything else besides her no matter how hard I try (its part of why I lost my job). I can accept if we get our general relations back on track, showing her all the things that she felt I was missing as positives when we broke up, and then we slowly make our way to addressing any possible romantic relationships, even if in the long run they don't pan out. I can't accept me waiting, and her deciding she wants to try a relation with someone else just for the experience, and me not ever wanting to talk to her again despite loving her so much. Its a delicate balance, I just want to get this one going in the correct direction because it means so much to me.