Hi BeautifullyMistaken,

I came across your post today, and I just want to let you know that I can completely relate. I too am starting my spring semester next week, after battling a severe bout of anxiety depression. These last few months have been the scariest of my entire life, although my life hasn't been easy. I almost lost myself. The most important thing for me was learning that I was NOT alone. I was sad and anxious all of the time and I didn't know I was even "depressed". In the past I have also had problems with SI also. You are taking the right steps to recovery. I personally didn't feel my medication work until about a month, because everyone's bodies are different. And as far as school goes, if you need a break its OKAY to take a semester off to get better. Mental health should be the most important thing right now for you. To start to find those little reasons to be happy again. This is life, it's hard and unfair, but if you stick this out I know you WILL get through this okay. Best of luck friend.