I'm scared. Terrified is more like it. I have not been able to snap out the funk no matter what I do.My pdoc and I agree I should not change any thing because I don't want side effects.Why do I have to choose between hells? I either take what works best for me and gain weight, or I take what I do and live with a degree of depression and mind racing.To make matters worse, our household has 3 other people in that also suffer from depression and they are all doing poorly too. My husband is unemployed and my other 2 sons are alcoholics. None of them can get their meds due to lack of insurance and the alcohol just feeds into their depression. i 'm at the point where I don't want to get out of bed, I cry alot, and just have to try EXTRA hard to even move.The only thing that motivates me is I'm scared for them. But I'm scared for me too. I don't know How much more stress I can take. I blew up today at me son. I NEVER do that.How doI stay focused and surmount this for myself and all ofus?