(((((Tree))))) Im glad you sent the email to T and he got a heads up. Its so important that you asked for help in getting focused. Were you able to get it all out about H? T is so wonderful playing dots with you so you can get it out.

I so know that dont talk, dont feel and dont trust. That is why we are doing this now instead of at 16. We could not talk, we didnt even know how to feel, and who can we trust enough to to tell what went on and how we felt even if we knew how?

And all of it feels so uncomfortable and painful. ((((((Tree)))) We are all here and i know you know you can trust to process here whatever you are feelings. You are not 8 years old anymore and that family situation no longer exists. You are safe now and your life is yours.