Mike J - I don't plan on stopping the anti-depressants. The doc said they'll take a few weeks to start to feel better, but oddly enough I think I'm feeling worse after these 10 days. I plan on making a follow-up with my dr in the near future as well.

LynnP - Not really sure how my Mom feels (since she hasn't talked to me). Whenever I go there, she seems to be fine. But I agree, maybe she doesn't know what to say to me. Makes me feel like crap though.

SanitySeeker - I've been doing alright sleeping, dieting and exercising I suppose. I have a hard time falling asleep cause the meds make me sweat and shake. I'm usually not very hungry, but force myself to eat. I've tried to casually bring it up. I mentioned I had to leave her house soon so I can take the meds at 2pm (same time everyday). She just said OK. I mentioned some of the side effects, she just said to keep taking them. That's all I got out of her. I don't talk to my sister cause she is only 14. She still somewhat looks up to me...and I want her to think I'm fine. Other than that, I don't have any family or close friends. Thanks for the response.

Shezbut - Yeah, Seems like its going to take forever. I'm wondering if it will help at all cause as I mentioned, I feel worse. My mind is just all over the place..(probably not appropriate to post here). I don't have a T yet either. Gotta wait til June to get in cause I don't have insurance. It sucks not being able to talk to anyone for any sort of moral support. I'm always alone and sad, so that's where SI comes into play. I would love to hold onto hope &/or pleasure if I had some, but I'm at a point where I don't have either. I really feel I have absolutely nothing left.

Berries - Thank you!