I don't like to throw around numbers because that is how I slipped into my disorder for the second time, but I get caught up in them so easily. I cound calories (not as much as I used to) and weigh myself in the mornings. I know that my weight is "healthy," but I just feel FAT all of the time. I am a soccer player and my legs are supposed to me muscular and I am supposed to be a few pounds heavier than the "normal" person because of the muscle. I can say that easily, but I just can't believe it. I am 125 and 5'3. I am eating healthy so I figure the weight that I am gaining is just muscle, but I just feel enormous! I wish my body image wouldn't be so bad. I just hate having to struggle all of the time. It makes my life so frustrating!!!!