Ok, I understand sweet, and again, I was hoping my post wouldn't come across as bad. Just wanted to know why you felt that way, and I don't blame you for searching into other options.
However, I will tell you, don't let any depression go for to long, as it seems the longer it goes without treatment, the worse it gets, and the option you are seeking might not be there anymore.....That is what happened to me, as there was apparantly to much damage done, now I will be on "vitamin P" for the rest of my life.

Sincerely, SongBird