Just a little update.
Back to work so that keeps me busy during the day but the nights have become hard again... "roller coaster ride".
I have a therapist appt this afternoon so maybe that will help. I forgot to take my meds this morning - didn't reailse until I was half way to work, i know that missing it once probably wont have any affect but because I know that I missed it I feel all anxious and sad... the fire is back in my arms and legs making me want to run away (don't know if that really makes sense to anyone else).

Today I still love him but I don't want to. I want him back but I don't. I miss him but not the person he is now..

Just had to write all of this down.

Any advice out there?