I think that we are always a work in progress. First finding the right med mix for you, then tweaking it when necessary. About two months ago we tweaked mine and I have been feeling really good. Then New Year's Day and all last weekend I had a bad episode and slept the whole time. This afternoon while I was struggling at work, the darkness lifted. I was disappointed that I hit bottom again but it only lasted three days! I have never recovered so quickly! Life is good again!
So don't stop trying. Never give up. Find what works for you.
Good luck!
DJ