Thank you everyone for taking time out of your lives and putting time into thought and putting it into words for me.
I appreciate it greatly.
Especially now when I am feeling so very low and unstable.
I stick with therapist because I hate change.
It takes me simply foever to get past little simple traumas then to really dive into the big issues at hand so I just hate to even try to trust again because I trust so very little.

Change, the ridicule of family a million things.
And yes I do want to get better. But fat, fat, I feel like after two weeks of trying to eat a little btter its creeping up on me. And I'm am having some crazy thoughts. That I don't know if I or anyone can help me with or control. My life, is falling apart. I trust noone for some reason yes people like me.
But then they use me.
And then they abuse and mentally abuse me. The only one who is always true is my anorexia????