Sorry for not replying, have just been a bit... out of it.

@Kjb, Msolson, Bias, sounds like we're all in the same crappy boat. I think it's about time we took over the captains quarters and steer this ship to brighter skies

@Byz, I started taking Lexapro but I haven't started therapy yet. I sent out two emails today to two possible therapists, no reply yet. I can't afford any of this but really I don't think I can afford NOT to do it either.

@Lynn, I agree completely. We are not the money we make, the house we live in or the significant other we cherish. However, they do help. I used to be very active at my gym, and still have my membership for a few more months, I just rarely go anymore. Maybe once a week I make it there, when it used to be 4 times a week at the least. I just don't have the same energy and drive I used to have. I haven't suddenly turned into an old man, so it must be the depression sapping my energy. I wanted to watch that show but completely forgot I was with my brother though, getting my mind off everything.

@trevor, For all of the negative things she has said to me recently, she also tries her best to encourage me and help any way she can. She's just going through a lot right now too, and I think she kinda looks at my problems like one more of her problems. I wouldn't call her toxic exactly, but she can be trying at times.