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As some of you may have read in my other post, I have cheated on my boyfriend (now ex-boyfriend) with about 8 people. Many of them where men I didn’t even want to have sex with. I feel completely disgusted with myself, and the guilt is overbearing. I feel like a *****. I hate myself, and I feel like I don’t deserve to be with someone decent. I just started dating someone new, and I feel like I am holding this deep dark secret. I feel like I AM a lie. My ex bf never found out about the cheating and there is no one in the world that can convince him to tell him. It would kill him. Should I tell the new guy if it gets serious? How do I get over the guilt, and get back what little self-esteem I had?
It was my therapist who told my to cheat, but i'm sure he didnt mean for me to go this overboard.
thanks
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