Wow, I see so many similarities in how you view things and the situation with your job.

I usually find the reasons why something won't work, won't happen, etc. I am not a risk-taker. That says a lot about me, apparently, and much of it is due to past abuse. I've put so many limitations on myself and for a while, I was doing things to break free of some limitations. Now, I've leveled off....retracting even.

When it comes to our jobs, it's hard to say, "Oh, just find another job!" because there's so much at stake! It's easier said than done, in this economy.

I've come to the realization, after working with the same company for the last 13 years, that I need to try to find something else. This job is unhealthy for me. My boss hates me. He is starting to exclude me. And yesterday, I was screamed at by my CEO...yes, SCREAMED at - first in front of the whole company and then it was taken into my CFO's office. All because of a misperception.

I do not deserve this. I deserve much better. But as a single mom with a roof to put over my daughter's head, it's not as simple as just up and leaving. There's a lot to consider.

Sorry to ramble on....this just triggered my own crappy day yesterday and knowing what I need to do...and being scared to do it.