Isn't it amazing how naming our feelings makes them so much less scary and more tolerable..and gives us a glimmer of hope that we can deal with them and move past them? I am so grateful to therapy for teaching that to me. That instead of running AWAY from feelings and denying them, I need to look them in the face and say hello to them and invite them in. If I can make friends with them, it takes away their power. It's like turning on the lights and seeing there isn't really a monster in the closet...it's just my big messy pile of clothes, and THAT is something I can deal with, clean up, and put in it's place.

I think it's great that you called T...and that she can fit you in. You did good, hard work.

I hope you were able to get some restful sleep, and that work is a little more bearable today, with the new knowledge that you have options and that you will find a way to more forward.

to you!