Well said. That's how I feel too. Like being sick and tired of being sick and tired. Really makes it tough.

I think I am beginning to get that its not about why but rather its about what and how. What do I do now to keep it from getting worse? How do I cope. How do I manage my way through this. How do I empower myself to keep on keepin on without giving in to the negative feelings. What little thing can I do this minute and the next minute and the next..... sometimes minute by minute just to keep my head looking up and forward. How do I love myself through this so that I don't loose hope.

Sometimes the best I can do is accept that I am depressed and arm myself to counter the effects as best I can giving myself kudos and affirmations along the way until I can see some light again.

Wishing you well perfectsilence as you keep on keepin on even as the mystery of it all remains somewhat illusive. Ours is not to reason why, ours is just to do and try.

Blessings.