Hey Berries,

I too have had those days. When I was going through a really bad patch all I could do was lie in my bed sometimes awake other times sleeping. I was either too tired to move or just couldn't. My flat mate was worried as I wouldn't come out my room, my curtains were always shut and I wouldnt move at ALL. Even answering a text or phone call was a nightmare and forget coming onto the net. I never managed that for wks on end. My body had just given up and I just didnt have the energy or power to do anything about it. This is where I discovered I was depressed. Sometimes I wish I could just curl up into a ball and just "hibernate" as my mate calls it. If only that was the case. When I am in this mind frame I do not shower etc and I ALWAYS do as this is part of my ocd is washing myself throughouly. I do not eat either which isnt good for me either as I had a sort fo eating disorder when I was younger. I am always in a catch 22 with my depression as I am either too happy or too unhappy. If I am in a happy mood this can last days, unhappy mood lasts LONGER which sucks big time. Then when I am happy I worry that I shouldn't be happy and smiley as people will think I am making having depression up. My mate thinks I am crazy for thinking this as I am only human and I am MEANT to and ALLOWED to lead my life. I am always worried I shouldn't be happy or smiley or having a good time.

Who knows what you are meant to be or feel like???

Berries what I am trying to say is the best cure is to and I hate to say it as its a hell of a lot easier said than done is GET MOTIVATION. I know your sitting there saying "ye right" and I know you are as thats they way I still am when people say that to me. But at least try it. I make a point of meeting up with a friend every wk. This is my motivation and now I am back at work I have work to motivate me which is helping since I am an insomniac too

Hope this helps you