For three nights in a row, I have been up until 3 or 4 a.m. My family wakes up at 7, so I am not deeply asleep when they get up. I have to get up when my husband leaves for work because it is inhumane for me to force my two year old to sit in a baby exer-saucer so that he is contained while I sleep. (I milked that one for as long as I could because I was having so much trouble getting up in the mornings, but I can't do it to him any more.) Anyway, it seems my Seroquel is not working any more to get me to sleep.

Today I can't think straight. I looked in the microwave for a mug, and in the refrigerator for the coffee I had just made which was sitting in the coffee pot. I was walking around in circles in the kitchen trying to remember what I was doing. When I close my eyes, it seems like strobe lights flash, and I heard a sound that could only be described as a hub cap spinning the way kids spin pennies on a desk.

The good news is I see p-doc today and will let her know what is going on. The bad news is that I can't sleep during the day. I just perk up and can't get settled. Perk up is the wrong word. Wound up is more like it. The last three days have yeilded three to four hours each, and the last week has yeilded no more than six hours. The week before that, I was sleeping all the time. My mood is swinging between depressed and angry. ( See my two most recent threads)I think I am getting a script for Lithium today. P-doc makes it sound like it is my last chance for meds. After that she says handfuls of Omega 3's and management of the symptoms. I disagree. There are tons of meds I haven't tried. I don't want to have to search for a new doc again, so I have to find out why she thinks Lithium is my last chance. (even though secretly, I would love to not take meds)

My symptoms are so out of control.

By the way, the coffee is decaf. I just like the comfort of having a cup of warm coffee.