Everyone else is no you, Berries. the stuff you are living with puts a huge strain on you, and your brain is not handling pleasurable input right to begin with. Don't beat yourself up, now. I havea feeling this will only make it worse. Your T probably knows you well enough to be able to tell that this or somehing like it was coming, so don't get all worried about how he or she is going to handle it. rest, and concentrate on doiing those little things that help you get back on track. Huggs and warm, gentle wishes.