Moon....I'm so sorry your having a hard time right now. I've been using my bad coping skills the same as you but its not really helping. I'm glad your getting in to see your T on thursday but in the meantime can you maybe call T and speak to her for even a few minutes and maybe that will help ground you alittle? Its just a suggestion, I'm not in the best place right now but its all I can think of. Please take care of yourself.
cai