Like Vickie, I'm Bi-Polar II, with longer depressions. Like Navygrrl, I have GAD. When I'm manic (ok, technically hypomanic), I'm more sociable. But I actually feel like I have LESS TIME for people. Or get irritated by the need to have extended conversations.

When depressed, its more complicated. The GAD (Generalized Anxiety) is more severe, because the mania isn't there to overcompensate. So I don't want to go out, I don't want to talk to people, I use the automatic teller and self-checker in the grocery....I push myself to apartment hunt and job hunt, but each exchange takes a LOT out of me.

But at the same time....

Those are the times I most cherish my visitation times with the kids. Those are the times I write lengthy emails to my best friends (rather that short, caustic updates on facebook). I guess the key in those times would be the need for a deeper connection.

But yet...

There are also times I don't want to talk to anyone. At all. My pain is so deep - I don't want to talk about trivialities like what movies our kids like, or who came over for Christmas - or, or, or...

I don't even want to hang around peers, or go to group therapy.

It's a *****.

If there is an upside - just stick around. The mood will change.

Of course, I am too pure and virtuous to do anything really crazy.

Yeah right. Anyone know how to delete chat logs? Things got a little weird when the doc tried ADD medication on me. (At least that's my story, and I'm sticking to it.)