In the future, remember how this experience made you feel. When you feel like cheating the the memory of how you felt should you curb any self distructive urges. As far as not wanting to not have sex with some of them, how do you have sex when you do not want to? If you feel you do not want to have sex , please tell them no. As far as your therapist telling you to have sex with other people, did this not raise a red flag for you? Please keep yourself safe. I would not tell your current bf about this. I hope that you had safe sex, but even if you did, I would have a full STD panel and AIDs test done. Good luck to you and keep posting to let us know how you are doing.