So I saw T yesterday and had an okay session. I find the reunions still difficult at least on some level. He commented that my mood seemed better and I told him it was a direct result of our work and the anti-d. He agreed. But then he said a few things that TOTALLY ANNOYED ME. First of all he asked if Christmas was fun and I said no. He knows I don't like Christmas and although I try to enjoy it, it is immensely difficult for me to move through those two weeks because of the amount of childhood trauma surrounding that time of year. I know he wanted me to be "in the now" and acknowledge how enjoying it is to be with my family now, but frankly I still don't like the holidays and what I enjoy is reveling in the fact that they are OVER. He's such a jerk sometimes. Then he made the most absurd suggestion with respect to me and H - can't even go into it. But suffice it to say no woman would have said it. Sometimes he's such a GUY.

So, I don't know if I'm being stubborn; punishing him for being away (which I tend to do); not being my adult self or he was just an idiot. There are times when therapy sucks.