Every single day I sit and think what a horrible mother/wife I am. Because I don't interact that much with my family. And I say I will do something then get sidetracked and not do it. And I don't do much in the bedroom department well not as much as when my husband and I first got together but I think thats normal after being with someone for 9 years. It's just the guilt over it. I just don't feel like I am doing enough for my family. I can't work right now. I want to but I can't really see myself driving all the way to the city everyday and being away from home right now. I alsoo feel guilty because my son is starting to shun his schoolwork. I have tried and tried to talk to him about it but he don't listen. I sit around alot and get lost in my head, which I know is not good for me. I'm not sad just I feel worhtless and bad. I don't hate myself I just wish I could be better than I am right now. I don't have any friends irl. I have wonderful friends on PC that I care about, but the only time I communticate with my family is on facebook. I just don't like them f2f. They get on my nerves. Then I feel guilty about that. My house is a wreck. Mabye I am just lazy. IDK