I was psychotic as a child and they thought I had adhd. I remember one time a voice told me to scream at the teacher and throw a tantrum so I did. I didn't know the things I experienced were any different from the other kids so I never really said anything.
I was put on drugs and put in special classes yet I got straight A's and never had any problem learning. I was taken off drugs and mostly taken out of the classes when I was about 12 but as I got older the bipolar schizoaffectice stared kicking in. I always had schizoaffective tendencies even while I was on meds as a child. My mother always called me psycho and threatened to put me in a mental hospital.
I was basically labeled handicapped by the school system the whole time but when my IQ and brain waves were tested I was called genius by doctors. Needless to say I was VERY bitter about the whole thing and still am. I think the reason I have a lot of self esteem problems now is because of my experiences with being basically labeled retarded for most of my life and trying but failing to fight the system. It was pointless for me to graduate high school because I was still under the umbrella of "emotionally handicapped" and it would have gone into my records... I really did not want that.
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