Dear, have you gotten in touch with a pdoc or someone who can help you with the anxiety? I probably don't need to say it, but i know that is h%&& on earth and it's hard to manage the depression with the fear going on. Someone who works with CBT can also be a ot of help with that, in case the meds are out of the question. Thinking of you, and hoping you'll get some peace soon HUUUGGGSSS. Let us know how you're doing!