Thank you so much for all of your posts. I did contact my Pastor and he has suggested that I meet up with him and his wife. I feel terribly guilty about burdening other people but I'm feeling so down I didn't know what else to do.

Tumnus, take the plunge and email your Pastor if you haven't already. As Lonegael said, Pastors are there to lead and take care of their flock so he/she will probably be glad you contacted them.