I don't think,for me - I cannot say for everyone here - its not that I cannot love, it is that when the illness is overwhelming I feel horrible for inflicting myself on others. If it weren't for my husband's constant and loving insistence that I cannot leave, I would have a left a million times for feeling that I am torturing him as much as my illness tortures me. That is why I have ended all of my friendships and countless romantic relationships in the past.