Tree- I agree with Bloom. That you are so honest and real about what you are going through. I think this will save you, you know? You are so aware of what is triggering these feelings. You may be overwhelmed and using bad coping skills, but you know what the good ones are and you are here positng and talking to us. You are moving along and going through your day.
Be gentle with yourself today, my dear friend

You deserve gentleness and to be treated with care and respect