I hope i didnt confuse everyone lol. I shoukd have wrote it diff. I think what i mean is if your not on meds and push people away due to mania or depressive state do you feel guilty after the mania ends because you know that the meds could have helped you and maybe you would not have done that if you were taking them. Also if you do take m.eds do you still push people away ? Hoping to get diff opinions on people who take meds and who doesnt take meds and if you both push people away and the aftereffects. i know that was dragged oit. hope it made sense