Yeah but six years? Though, really, I haven't put myself out there to meet someone. It was so easy in high school to meet people; we all had to be there at the same time. After my fiancé broke up with me in 2003 I had one relationship that ended badly. Then I retreated into myself and was extremely shy at college. I saw so many women I'd would have liked to be with but could never get the guts to talk to them. There was one girl I was infatuated with at school and had actually been talking to. I finally got the drive to ask her out and then she stopped coming to class. I later found out she died in a car crash. I retreated even farther after that I think. I started thinking "what if I had asked her out earlier? would she have been in that car that got hit by that bus if I had asked her out?"

Anyways, I'm babbling on. I realize I need to get out there and meet people and just be social. It's just hard to do since the bipolar disorder hit me.