Lonegael I agree with you regarding everything you wrote...Loneliness has become so agonizing lately that I can't fight off the depression it used to bring...I mean prevously I would make myself busy and actually enjoy music, going out, t.v shows, books to manage and supress the depression... I guess lack of companionship and abusive relationships always made me feel depressed but I somehow managed to put up a formidable resistance not only in terms of work and my future but also in terms of relaxation and entertainment...However nowadays it feels like each day is like walking on coals I can no longer enjoy activities that previously used to keep my depression at bay and the 'Need' for companionship is hammering my chest like a raging bull...The worst of it is that even my wife is not comforting me...Two years of effort in making her open up have led to nothing... she doesnt make me laugh, she doesnt talk on the phone and she is very sensitive about any hard remarks...I thought the 'friend' i had online maybe someone who would help me through this crisis but respecting her boundaries and reaching out have led to nothing... she barely notices me...I don't know guys, I simply hate the situation I am in and apart from putting up a resistance I have run out of hope and options...