Sorry.
I think I am still in a denial stage.
I have lots of people indicating to me that what I went through was abuse but I don't want to - or can't - agree. I'm confused. I still love them, even though I have put up barriers between me and them. I can see how it all happened. But I also feel that I deserved to be treated this way and that what they did was not so bad. But if it wasn't so bad, why am I in such a mess?
Caroline