Please don't read this if you might be triggered. I mention specific flaws and it could upset you if you think you have the same flaws, or if you are the type to start scrutinizing those same parts of yourself after I bring it up. I don't want to hurt anyone by my post.

Still here? I hate my skin. I hate it from my enlarged pores, my newly developing wrinkles, my varicose veins, my stretch marks (had some since puberty, but more now), my sagging breasts, my ocassionally red cheeks (not in a good way), my blackheads, and my cellulite that is poking through that loose webbing inside me. Oh, and the color. I seriously feel like such a BS'er because I cover my skin in makeup all the time. I think, if men knew they kissed or did anything with a woman who looks like I do without makeup, they would feel disgusted. I feel embarassed to let anyone I know see me without it, and somewhat uncomfortable without it, even around strangers.

Right now, I want to talk about skin color. I actually like dark and pale skin, so it isn't that I hate my skin color- it is that I hate it on me. I want dark skin. I am seriously considering drastic measures to get it. But I don't see the point when I am so ugly inside. Blargh.