Well its official, my dad sceduled an appointment to our family physician to go and see if I have depression. I'm worried that the doctor will think I'm odd because I might have it. Also, I am worried he will ask me questions like have you ever self-injured or used drugs or alcohol as a way to cope in front of my dad. The truth of the matter is no I have never done drugs, but alcohol yes, and self injury yes, but I don't want my dad knowing that. All I know is that I hope things can get worked out, because I would like to have a normal rest of high school. I'm kinda disappointed in myself because two days after christmas I got really down. Then, out of nowhere I purposely injured myself. I'm proud of myself though, because two days ago, I was hanging with my friends and we were just talking then it got on a conversation of secrets so I told them about how I might have depression and about what happened two days after christmas. They were in utter shock. I wasn't surprised that they had no clue, because I try to cover it up so much especially when I'm with my friends. I was just surprised that I told them. It turns out, one of my friends had depression. We kind of talked about it and I could really tell that she knew what I was going through. I think it's just easier to talk to someone who is dealing with the same situation because you know they understand what you're going through, and vice versa.

Well the appointement is on friday, so I will let you all kow what the doctors find.

Bye