Welcome rabbit hockey,

I can imagine how difficult it must feel to think about admitting these things in front of your dad. You probably might not believe that but I really do. It's taken me over 30 years to tell a family member any details of what I've actually done in the course of some of my darker moments.....it was easy to tell a professional but I had never told a family member until just recently. I asked my husband if he wanted to know and he said yes. It was really hard.

You know what? You are very smart and you are very brave. It takes a lot of courage to tell others when you are hurting badly enough to do things that are not healthy for yourself. It is also very mature. I know it probably doesn't seem like it now and you'd rather do anything but talk to the doctor in front of your dad. But in the long run, it is going to be the best thing for you. I wish I had had a parent that cared this much for me when I was in high school. It may not seem like it now but you are showing very good self care which is a very big deal.

Please keep us posted on how things go. We really care about you.