It is horrible to be re-traumatized....I hope you are able to work through your feelings and get to a better place so you can feel more confident about your appointment.

I had a full blown panic attack prior to an appointment that I had last week just to get a simple test done. I am in the process of reading a book called "Don't Panic! Third Edition" which was recommended to me by my daughter's T. I'm still midway through the book, but it is a worthwhile read to help deal with panic. Obviously, I haven't implemented anything that I've read yet.