It's ruining my life. I've struggled with my weight since I had my kids, which is 5 years now. I just want to lose weight so badly. I starve, I purge...I consume ALOT of diet pills, up to 8 a day. I think about it all day everyday. I don't know how to stop thinking about it. There's no accepting myself as is, because I am disguisted with myself. When I see myself naked I get really disappointed and depressed. For 24 years old, I look like ****. I hate it.