Sorry, I meant that when I go to college, I can look into counseling there because my high school doesn't offer any counseling... haha, darn internet text and it's misunderstandings! But I should probably look into some counseling now... but I don't know, I don't really want my parents involved in all that. Is there anything that provides anonymity for minors?

As it stands right now, my oldest brother is their little angel whereas I'm the "spoiled" and "self-centered" brat. Seriously! My mom's talking about me behind my back to her friends again. I seriously wonder how she "spoiled" me considering that my family income is at the poverty line. I've been trying to land part-time work to help finances around the house (and finally did at my school) but, uh, you know, I'm still self-centered (she only works part-time, and J., who is 19, doesn't work at all!). They aren't giving me a penny for college tuition, but she says that I'm "entitled." Entitled to what, exactly???

I wish she would bring up any issues she has with me to my face instead of just making up lies about me. She's very angry that I want to move out and can't seem to understand why I'd ever want to leave. She even told me that she expects me to come visit every weekend when I'm in college. I think it's funny how she pretends that she's helped me through this college application process when, in reality, she showed absolutely no interest in my schoolwork for all these years. The only thing she cares about is if I go to a local college and live at home.

I feel stupid for having even talked to her about any of this. She obviously hasn't heard a single thing I've said.

But... your right. I just need to try and understand where my parents are coming from. I think I've been acting out more than usual lately just because I strongly resent my oldest brother for turning his life around... That's so terrible, isn't it? It kinda is... I should be glad that he's "matured," even if I have difficulty believing it. Although, now I'm the "black sheep" of the family. But deep down, I can see that my parents care for me and only want what's best for their kids...

I think something I need to learn is that I shouldn't be so upset if my parents act "in character," even if it hurts me. They have their inner-demons, and I have mine, too...