Starrina....so sorry to hear that you feel like this.

As for your question, well that's a really tough one. It is of course possible that what appears to be a s*** attempt is just SH but only the individual knows what is going on in their own mind. I have had personal experience of both and I am accutely aware of my intentions in both situations. S*** is the biggest decision you can make and it's certainly not a decision that one comes to without thinking about the consequences (not in my case anyway). For me, the two have served very different purposes. SH was a way to enable to me live whereas the other was as a result of feeling completely worthless and unable to cope with another day.

It's difficult to add more without you qualifying the question and I guess, knowing your reasons for asking. I hope you find someone you can trust and open up to so you can discuss these issues. It's so important to be able to speak to someone if you have these questions in your mind.

Try to look after youself and please post to let us know how you are doing.