Hey,
I feel I understand, yet I may not. I don't know what you been threw, only things I have been through. New years a huge memory surfaced. It was disturbing. I have information to ruin those around me. So I want to share my excitement but still I cannot share my story, at least not with them. Don't give up. The people here will listen. I am dealing with a lot with this new memory so I may not be back awhile. And when others take over I don't come here. Don't give up. Someone will finally hear you, and even understand. It is finally happening for me. Someone finaly listened.
They say people aren't as scary as we make them out to be. With what I know now I am starting to believe it. I don't know you, but if you are not in therapy I recommend it. It took me over 7 years in therapy to finally quit talking about the weather. But when I actually talked of my life it was received well and I was shown compassion. I believe therapy works, but if you find someone you resonate with, it works the best.
I know I haven't unlocked the worst. But at least now I have some xanax to help. It is not our faults bad things happened to us. Please keep trying. When the storm is over the rainbow will be so beautiful. I empathise with you. Sure I do not know what you are going through, but I know part of what I went through. I wish no one had to go through those things. Even if you have to take it 5 minutes at a time, do. Then you can eventually make it longer and longer. I started with seconds at a time. Now I can almost get through a whole week.
You will be heard. You will be understood. Just don't give up.