For me over the past few months I've learned that I have more male alts than females. I know in my own experience I've often drawn the conclusion that if I were a boy bad things would not happen to me. I don't remember at all anything bad happening to me so I don't know why I came to that thought when I was only 3-5 years old. Even now I feel that way and I don't know how to change it. I know I have females inside so I'm hoping someday they'll step forward and show me that it's okay to be a girl and that it's not bad to be me. It's going to be a long uphill battle I know because I myself cannot accept that I have a female body. At any rate I'm thinking that when bad things happened (or were perceived to be happening since I don't even know if anything actually happened though all evidence points to it) a male had to step in to either stop it or take the blows since my small female body was very weak compared to the men that harmed me. (I assume it was men who hurt me I don't remember so I use "men" since it's logical)