You asked, "does it get any easier" ?

I'm going to answer yes. When I broke up with my boyfriend of 4 years, I had already spent the last year of our relationship mourning the fact that it was going terribly. I had done some things that hurt him and were not in keeping with my own morals, and it was time to let go. I cried a lot, and I felt very guilty a lot (I was also the one who did the breaking up). I decided to be patient with myself, and it got better. It's been about 3 years since then and sometimes I still feel weird about it, but I am my own person and have a great relationship that is better because of what I learned from the first one.

Yes, it does get better. Until then, (((((adamsgirl)))))