I know exactly how you feel... The night I was raped and had to go to the hospital the next morning, they tested me for everything under the sun, especially STD's... I was so scared. I had been so careless for so long, I just knew I was going to get bad results, and I did. But thankfully, it wasn't news that I had HIV or a disease that would kill me. I was dignosed with HPV and genital herpes, both. I cried for three days straight after finding out. But then I realized, why cry over spilled milk? All you can do is learn from it and move on to something greater in life. I do wish you the best and hope your tests come back with good results.