If you're not fine, you're not fine. I don't understand why you say you are to everyone and hang around everyone you don't want to hang around. The suddenness of not wanting to text your friend, what was that about? I don't think it can get better if you're only enjoying 5 minutes of your time a couple days a week, the majority of your time and feelings are against you. I would ask your mom if you can see a counselor.