I've drawn what it looks like before. It is an ugly grey creature that sits with its back to me. It won't look me in the eye and waits for me to approach it with empathy and care. Suddenly, it jumps up and I realize it is huge. It overpowers me and hides itself within me, possessing me and using me as its host.

Well, that's how I feel lately anyway. I hope to be able to leave it outside myself someday. I hope it will receive my empathy and care without trying to destroy me.