Isadora, do you think he is putting as much effort into trying to be a good boyfriend as you are trying to be a good girlfriend? It sounds very unequal to me. It sounds as though he wants to dominate you. I know you love him but you need to think about how healthy this relationship is.

Consider if he is abusive:

Emotional abuse (also called psychological abuse or mental abuse) can include humiliating the victim privately or publicly, controlling what the victim can and cannot do, withholding information from the victim, deliberately doing something to make the victim feel diminished or embarrassed, isolating the victim from friends and family, implicitly blackmailing the victim by harming others when the victim expresses independence or happiness, or denying the victim access to money or other basic resources and necessities.
People who are being emotionally abused often feel as if they do not own themselves; rather, they may feel that their significant other has nearly total control over them.

Verbal abuse is a form of abusive behavior involving the use of language. It is a form of profanity that can occur with or without the use of expletives. Whilst oral communication is the most common form of verbal abuse, it includes abusive words in written form.

forms of domestic violence

Please do what is best for YOU.