((((((((((((Chris))))))))))))

Sounds like you and T are working hard to help you move through this in the way that you need to for your son and yourself.

Slowing down my thinking is a huge part of coping for me...although it's hard for me to see or understand that when I'm in crisis.

Would it help to write down the things T is telling you, so you can refer back to it when your thinking starts spiraling out again??